ONLY BY GRACE

Whatever is left of this 1 week break is just the rainy weekend and bits & pieces of work left to be settled. Sounds pathetic but I shall not dwell in that anymore. Strangely, I'm find myself enjoying just being home (especially in this weather) and dabbling in whatever I feel like doing. Own time own target. Honestly, I didn't really have a break. With 4 days spent in school (oral and ODAC camp)...where thou the break? Its a good thing the hollie is ending soon; so I won't feel so shortchanged! But that's how it is. After all, I'm not Grace in Wonderland. As I come to terms with my horrid practicum job scope, I am thankful I'm born a positivist and fighter. There's always things to brighten up my day. Just yesterday I went groceries shopping with my mother and grandmother. Grandma saw me and exclaimed (in cantonese btw) that my lips are chapped and both got into this mini frenzy to get whatever cooling drinks/jellies etc to reduce the heatiness. I just ...

In school...waiting for the next segment of the ODAC camp to start. Waiting was the highlight for Day 1 of the camp. Teachers just waited and waited for things to happen and happen fast...but students fell short of our expectations. And so, Day 1 ended with me wanting it to be over soon. Waiting is rather torturous. Its akin to dying a slow death; just wanting the end to be near but time just seems to snail by. I'm in the waiting phase and I just want to move on quickly. I see a steep hill ahead and I don't know if I should quicken my pace so that I can get over the agony faster or just take my time, conserve my energy so that I can sustain the climb and beyond. Maybe do both? Waiting to go home tomorrow. Waiting to have my breathing space. Waiting to just see what will come my way...waiting....

Back from a Sec 3 level camp in JB, Tanjung Piai. Thought I could have the week's off to clear my brain's cache and prepare my lesson plans but alas...I'm down for ODAC camp and sec 4s' oral exam mock practice! When can I have my breather???? Sometimes I wonder whether returning to a familiar place is good for me after all. I'm like on the 'Wanted' list for this committee, that committee, this event, that event etc. Not that I'm popular or high-in-demand, its just that I'm nicely available. I'm not usually mindful of taking on responsibilities. Its just that during these 10 weeks, I reckon is a crucial component of my NIE understudy and I am not wanting to settle for something less in my planning (although i really hate lesson plannings!). But I'm so stretched! I feel like screaming: " GIVE ME MY SPACE!" To say the least, I'm feeling stressed. Most unfortunately, I'm not given the option to say 'No'. Not until I get ...

YOU STAY THE SAME THROUGH THE AGES YOUR LOVE NEVER CHANGES THOUGH THERE'S PAIN THE IN NIGHT BUT JOY COMES IN THE MORNING! Starting the day on the right note by knowing who's in control. Each breath taken in is an extra dose of grace to face the day. It will be good!

Looking cool ay??? Not too bad considering I just finished 40km of hard pedalling. The day started real early. Even before the sun was out, I was already up. All for my first attempt at the 40km OCBC cycle race. The race began at 6am so had to wake up early to get ready. In fact I did not sleep well at all; was tossing and turning. Definitely not because I was nervous. The culprit is no other than the weather! In any case, I was excited since its my first race with my most expensive buy of last year and I'm proud of myself for completing it in 1 hr 20mins +++. It was an achievement! I was supposed to be riding with my team-mates of the 'Catch-Me-If-You-Can' team but they were still nowhere to be found at the flag-off time! So I rode off with another friend after waiting for almost 40mins. They came late and I didn't have time to search for them so it was really a case of catch Grace if you can! I had a blast, to say the least. Next saturday I will be doing the biathlon ...

I finally can take a breather and bloggie! I just can't believe that my 2 weeks of the 10weeks practicum have just passed! But of course, its just ACTION this entire week since I started teaching. My gosh....if anyone desires for time to pass quickly JOIN TEACHING! Having not taught for the last 1.5years, getting back to the routine sure took some adjustment. Physically, I crashed by 10pm every night. Last night, 8.45pm! Record set. Just last week I was thinking its ultra boring to just shadow my CTs and not teach....I basically didn't know what I was asking for then. Mornings start with the mad rush of preparing for PE lessons and its just been taxing on my brain! After PE, I feel as though I've ran a marathon. I just slump on my chair and let the cool air from the air-con bring me back to life. When school ends, I just have little energy left to do my own trainings! OH ...btw I cycle to and fro school so....its zero level at the end of the day. Joani said this to me befor...