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me, myself and i

a conversation i had with a friend this evening really got me thinking.

he said, "grace, you are actually very funny but these days you are kind of holding yourself back. you are thinking alot."

he obviously didn't know what ian prayed over me 2 saturdays ago. ian said i am a hilarious girl with a bubbly nature but my depth can be hidden by this jovial facade at times. true.

when i pondered over what my friend and ian said, i realised they are similar yet different at the same time.

1 moment, my jovial nature cannot be hidden but sometimes i think people don't know how to take me seriously because of my 'siao-ding-dong-ness' and that undermines the treasure within me. so i chose to 'mellow' a little and when i do that, people senses that i'm holding myself back!

i don't think i'm having an identity crisis or unsure of who i am. but its interesting that in a span of 2 weeks, i would receive comments as such that really opens up the floodgate of many thoughts.

maybe its a new journey of redefining myself.
let's see where I will be brought to.

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