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SOLITUDE

Its been a while since I had some solid time of solitude. With Joani not around yesterday and for the rest of this week, I have no choice but to 'entertain' myself. For the past few weeks, every free time I had was spent with her and so it was a little weird to have to return to my 'palace' after lessons and not meet in her room or venture to Jurong Point. Well, its something I have to eventually be accustomed to as she & Addie won't be around NIE very soon.

Initially, I dreaded the thought of having to be alone. For someone who gets restless easily, being in solitude is the last thing on my mind! I need to be on the move all the time and its hard to get me to rest for long. But as I had the whole of last night and this entire morning to myself, I realised that solitude has much to offer, contrary to what I imagine it to be.

I kind of realised that I would want to avoid being in solitude because it:

1) forces me to exercise discipline, which I lack most of the time
2) forces me to be alone, which I really hate!
3) forces me to slow down, which I find it hard to do.

But they are so necessary!

Solitude provides a refreshing perspective when I'm all by myself. There's nothing grim or sad in times of solitude, rather it gives me that bit of space that I need to just stop and take stock of what's happening. Subconciously, I do rob myself of the luxury of my own space and being able to do my own things at my own time. Ironicially, I need my space and can get quite protective of it but I try to fill it up with things or people at the same time!

See solitude makes me see bits & pieces of who I am also and it sounds the alarm when there's some conflict somewhere and I need to attend to it soon!

In more ways than 1, solitude proves to be an asset.

Everyone of us needs to know how to find time to be in solitude once in a while. We cannot always be doing things and not really knowing if it all makes sense. Sometimes we need solitude to show us that there are beautiful things around that we have been missing out on.

For sure, solitude does not make one become emo! It has more depth to it than just feeling all feely! Experience it to know what I'm talking about! :)

Till the next solituding...

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