Skip to main content

Happy then pensive ...

The day started pretty alright. I actually woke up looking forward to what was ahead of me. After all, I get to play and play...that's when I'm most happy!

Some highlights:
1. 1 hr of solid play of handball during Principles Of Games lesson
2. Inter-class Floorball in the evening


The Sunshine Team. My handball team for POG.
We were a bunch of handball greenhorns but we played to the best of our abilities and came in 4th out of 4 teams! Haha

My class's floorball team.

Played well (as usual) and we qualified for another round of play-offs on Friday

My class. Finally a complete shot captured.

With us are our lecturers for POG - Mr Swarup and Mr Gurmit.

The adrenaline from all the play didn't really last long. All of a sudden after POG lesson, this wave of loneliness hit me. Class dimissed and my gal classmates left (2 of them only); the guys either went off as well or played soccer, BB etc. There and then, I didn't know where to go. I wanted to rest because of the ICG game in the evening but to head back to hall so early didn't seem 'exciting'. After fiddling with the floorball sticks (in bid to practice) for a short while, I left the MPH for the library.

My usual haunt in NIE is the library where I read my papers and chill out by myself. But today, horror of all horrors, it was packed and my Straits Times was nowhere to be found. There was no seat for me as well. Decided to just leave for hall. So I did.

I went back to school at ard 7 plus for the ICG floorball. Unlike previous games, I didn't feel all that excited or happy. My classmate asked why I appeared so grouchy...I replied saying its because I was sleepy (which = angry/grouchy). On hindsight, I wasn't angry! I just didn't know how else to reply.

Played the game; we qualified for next round. Happy yes, but somehow there's something missing. I just wanted to leave the crowd and be able to just talk to someone! JUST TALK! So i called my 'husband'-Joani and yeah...went over to her hall after I showered.

She cooked me instant noodles with cabbage, and mushroom! Yummy! And we proceeded to have a really intriguing conversation for almost 1 and a half hours. We both realised that we were in our 'emo' state today! Both felt a sudden pang of loneliness today and very very pensive. We could not point our fingers to a specific cause. We just talked and talked...

Somewhere in our conversation, I realised in my 3 months here in NIE, I am still feeling my place around in my class especially. The adjustment to just having only 2 female classmates in a class of 28 is still ongoing. I so want more of the female factor, where I can enjoy some cool girlie's chill out time now and then. I feel so weird when I end up being the only gal around for ICGs or even hang out time with classmates. There have been moments where I just felt so out of place (being the only rose amongst the thorns! :) ) and I wished at that moment, I had my female compatriots with me!

I have another year plus plus with this class and maybe, just maybe, I will find a few close confidante amongst my classmates whom I can journey with here in NIE and beyond.

I don't even know if what I'm writing sounds coherent..haha sounds like I'm rambling!

Oh well...writing is most therapeutic when I don't have to bother if it makes sense. Just my feelings, me and myself.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Wo(Man) of the hour

As I read the tribute to the late Dr Goh Keng Swee, I can't help but feel this profoundly deep admiration for this immensely brilliant forefather of Singapore. I was in awe of his contributions and how his influence is so pervasive in modern Singapore, yet so few actually heard and know of his legacy. The more I read on about what people remembered of him and his long list of accolades, the more proud I am to be a Singaporean. I never knew places of interests like our zoo, bird park and even Sentosa were his ideas! These are just a tiny fraction of his contributions. My gosh....it was just an incredible discovery and I was hooked to the Saturday's Special edition on 'Remember Dr Goh Keng Swee'. Strangely, my heart was pounding as I read and later reflected on this titan's life. Instinctively, a question came to mind i.e. will there be another titan like Dr Goh, Mr Lee KY, Mr Wee Kim Wee or the other members of the Old Guard in my generation? Will I get to see one em...
Post a Comment
Read more

SHAKING OFF THE DUST

Its been a long hiatus :) So many things have taken place and so many reflections to document but the inertia to do it was just to great to resist. Anyhow, decided to take some time during this break to start the 'blogging engine' going again. Hopefully, it revives my hope and wish to keep this site alive.  Just had the annual ODAC camp @ Ubin and while trekking around the island with the kiddies yesterday, I chanced upon this little grasshopper at the Sensory Trail. I managed to get up close and personal for this shot, which was taken with my new iPhone 7 ahem. Image was sharp and it looked great!  And the verse that came to mind was: "Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your Heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?....Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble." - Matthew 6: 26-34 In my rest...
Post a Comment
Read more

PSALM 121

I lift my eyes to the hills - where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth. He will not let your foot slip - he who watches over you will not slumber; indeed, he who watches over Israel, will neither slumber nor sleep. The Lord watches over you - the Lord is your shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night. The Lord will keep you from all harm - he will watch over your life; The Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore. Many a times, man fails to keep his promise but God never. He makes a promise and we can be so sure He will keep it forever and ever. Man may fail but He nevers. Sometimes, we may wonder if God is really doing the right thing for us but I know one thing - trusting Him is the only thing that can never go wrong :)
Post a Comment
Read more